Cro
Keeping moody all the time recently. I know the main reason is the lost in research again. I do always think that I put research as the highest priority, if it get wrong. I will feel very bad. Guess I am still a good good student:P
Thinking that I am a student then I should do good and be good. Like today in French class, I felt the sense of achievement again :P But need to change such thinking mode, really childish. Should be more balanced and find achievement in more than this.
Met ChiYi online. She always have the ability to inspire and encourage me.
Although once in a while's communication, but it always influence me a lot. Read
her little blog note, it touches me a lot. I should strive for my dream and
not doubting everyday. Hope the day when I am graduating , I could say the same thing
as she.
===============昨天晚上从南京回到合肥==========
昨天回到家，静静的收拾不多的东西
享受这很可能是在这里的最后一周
和我曾一个人痛苦，辗转，欢乐，拼搏的地方告别
我来的时候
充满希望 一无所有
离开的时候，这个小小的城市，竟然给予我这么多
Like Cro's word:"Keep the velocity and accelerate" Yes, not pushing too much, but get moving
and get better.
Irene's also caught a cold and moody these days. So both become very sensitive．:(
Another strange finding is that most of my moody come from that I'm lost and worrying for my
future, don't know what I could do in the future. I felt much worse because of this than not having a bf .
While for Irene, most of her bad mood come from the relationship( if I 'm telling right. :P )
Decided not to spoiled myself for feeling my feeling too much. No good for anythings. Just get more spoiled.
＂无欲则刚＂All the worrying and moody are arising from "欲" Should be hard and really concerntrate for a period. To get need to give. I need to be more efficient.
Decide to "闭关" as Na, be strong inside.
Thinking that I am a student then I should do good and be good. Like today in French class, I felt the sense of achievement again :P But need to change such thinking mode, really childish. Should be more balanced and find achievement in more than this.
Met ChiYi online. She always have the ability to inspire and encourage me.
Although once in a while's communication, but it always influence me a lot. Read
her little blog note, it touches me a lot. I should strive for my dream and
not doubting everyday. Hope the day when I am graduating , I could say the same thing
as she.
===============昨天晚上从南京回到合肥==========
昨天回到家，静静的收拾不多的东西
享受这很可能是在这里的最后一周
和我曾一个人痛苦，辗转，欢乐，拼搏的地方告别
我来的时候
充满希望 一无所有
离开的时候，这个小小的城市，竟然给予我这么多
Like Cro's word:"Keep the velocity and accelerate" Yes, not pushing too much, but get moving
and get better.
Irene's also caught a cold and moody these days. So both become very sensitive．:(
Another strange finding is that most of my moody come from that I'm lost and worrying for my
future, don't know what I could do in the future. I felt much worse because of this than not having a bf .
While for Irene, most of her bad mood come from the relationship( if I 'm telling right. :P )
Decided not to spoiled myself for feeling my feeling too much. No good for anythings. Just get more spoiled.
＂无欲则刚＂All the worrying and moody are arising from "欲" Should be hard and really concerntrate for a period. To get need to give. I need to be more efficient.
Decide to "闭关" as Na, be strong inside.
posted by evian at
1:06 AM
2 Comments:
Not that I'm sensitive because I'm sick - but every time I'm sick I feel ignored by you - it's probably different cultures.I cannot understand how it's possible to say"so, now you have your bread and milk - than you are happy now, bye". you can feel pressured - but you can find some time to talk to me. You even asked Charu to come instead of coming yourself:-It might all look selfish - but when I'm ill I feel lonely and sad and I cannot expect anybody except you to do anything for me.
Mmm...I'm also thinking a lot about the future, it bothers me a lot especially now when I'm taking psychology and having strong feeling for it. But all in all I have a feeling that this all will be solved eventually anyhow. I'll look for job, I'll try a bit of everything and it'll be fine.Not like this with relationships. They seem depend on luck more not on me. That make me feel lost and desperate. I think this sunday was one of the worst days in my life - not because what happened was particulaly bad, but because it gave me a strong feeling that I am unlucky, and I can do nothing to change it, and that it will stay like this forever.
By
Ircat, at 10:57 AM
My dear, communication never comes one way. as I told I've to go back to work and that I thought you might need them now, but I'm going to the lab, then ask Charu to come and give them to you. It's not like I just tell those words and hang up the phone. As I told I'm the person that prefer do more than say more. I'm not the one who can always tell nice. But I did wait the bus in the rain for half an hour just to go down the hill and buy the bread and milk for you. Hope you could understand.
Yet, I could still understand your feeling. Sorry, if it hurt. Let's step back and think from each other's point of view. And let this be yesterday.
By
evian, at 12:25 PM
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