A week again--- strong ^ vulnerable

Time flies, another week has passed by. Feeling quite pressurous this sememster, don't know why. Really hard for me to relax :( Although feel happy about the conference review thing, that's a big encouragement. But feel bad about research still, no no specific topic, maybe I should read more papers? Should stand on my own feet now. And the intership thing seems not going well at all. :( He want me to apply for TA. And tell mistakenly to him that I want to do PhD , and might apply other universities. Don't know if it is a good thing to tell. :( I'm really not in a good talking manner today or maybe I myself is too sensitive.

Kind of lost, lost , lost again. Ok, go to sleep now, to escape from the real world? Maybe yes, maybe no. Anyway, things will work out better tomorrow.

It is still hard to tell the feeling except here. Although such a moody mood, when people ask me how's it going? I 'm still sunny as usual and say "Tre bien. " Could feel hua is the same as me :P Strong outside and vulnerable inside.

Moody moody now. But tomorrow will be another day. Any way, I have the hope and that 's the most beautiful thing in the world, should have some flowers bloomed from that.