Rythm Of Falling Rain

US Visa Rejected today... When I saw the VO stamped hard on my passport, I just can't belive my eyes. All my friends have passed, I never ever expect this rejection will happen on me? I took it too much for granted. The check and the things I left last year had such a powerful impact on today , even on the future! Too hard! Sometimes, I believe all these are doomed. Too pessismitate? Don't know. I always think that I'm an optimistic person, maybe too much just go to another extreme?

Grass is growing.... fully everywhere! Trying to clean the room, to clean my mood. Feeling myself like a snail now, just want to hide in my own little shell and relax. I just found out that I forget long time ago how to relax. Just relax the way people think it' s relax. But is it the real relaxation for me? Can not do anything, not even writing, talking, crying... very pale now...

A big day in my life: 'Never ever took anything for granted! ' When you decide to do, you need to do it fully with your heart.

Rythm of falling rain might not be a good title for above written, but I will have it here...