balanced / unbalanced?---lost...
I shouldn't feel like this. My recent life is really very unbalanced, very very low efficient. People say , you should love yourself first , then be able to love others. Looking back these days, I spend too much time not doing research, maybe this is an important reason that I feel unbalanced. Actually I do love my research topic, although I didn't know how to get it started really. My impatience may be one of the main reason for my status in research now, I always expect a lot from reading very few papers.
For the department's party, I do feel the sense of achievement and proud of our Chinese people, especially when the professors can be such coorporative. It's my first time conduct a choir, but everybody finally did a very very good job. I am really very happy to find our Chinese can be so united. What's more, I got the chance to introduce them to our Vancouver's Chinese choir. Find some very good and passinate singers. I've also sung 4 interesting and traditional Christmas song with our international choir. 4 hours effort, not bad. I should admit that some of them are really very very professional, which can only be found from Chinese people that come from music school. But here it is so natural. Maybe that is one part in China's education that really need to be improved. Really thanks the "Music Fundametals " music class and my dear friend Irene. I now feel much much more comfortable with music and singing. :)
Seems all my big achievements this semester are connected with singing. Finally get the 'Chinese students choir across vancouver' set up. That's my biggest achievement in CSSA 2004. I am really happy about that. And working with the consulate, the music prof. and the host , different types of people is really a special experience. I did learn a lot from them. Got to be the host for the Choir event too. A new trial for me, ha!
Sometimes I just feel I'm responsible for this thing, so I have to do it, then I do it. What most of the time I enjoy is that every other people are having fun.
But... but after all the activities are gone, I feel kind of empty, kind of similar as Irene said. I now just have the strong desire to read some books in a quite night together with a man that I love, who also loves me...
I should love myself first! Care what I really care.
For the department's party, I do feel the sense of achievement and proud of our Chinese people, especially when the professors can be such coorporative. It's my first time conduct a choir, but everybody finally did a very very good job. I am really very happy to find our Chinese can be so united. What's more, I got the chance to introduce them to our Vancouver's Chinese choir. Find some very good and passinate singers. I've also sung 4 interesting and traditional Christmas song with our international choir. 4 hours effort, not bad. I should admit that some of them are really very very professional, which can only be found from Chinese people that come from music school. But here it is so natural. Maybe that is one part in China's education that really need to be improved. Really thanks the "Music Fundametals " music class and my dear friend Irene. I now feel much much more comfortable with music and singing. :)
Seems all my big achievements this semester are connected with singing. Finally get the 'Chinese students choir across vancouver' set up. That's my biggest achievement in CSSA 2004. I am really happy about that. And working with the consulate, the music prof. and the host , different types of people is really a special experience. I did learn a lot from them. Got to be the host for the Choir event too. A new trial for me, ha!
Sometimes I just feel I'm responsible for this thing, so I have to do it, then I do it. What most of the time I enjoy is that every other people are having fun.
But... but after all the activities are gone, I feel kind of empty, kind of similar as Irene said. I now just have the strong desire to read some books in a quite night together with a man that I love, who also loves me...
I should love myself first! Care what I really care.
posted by evian at
2:00 AM
1 Comments:
I envy you a little bit that when you are empty you want to read books. I cannot do anything, as you could notice.
You should definitely love yourself and stop doubting if you are good enough or not. You are a wonderful person, and just keep learning to become better. You can always becomce better, but please do love yourself at least as much as I do love you.
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Ircat, at 10:37 AM
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